Sometimes I wonder
is just sometimes.
How can one person have so many
and collisions of feelings?
How is a girl
supposed to trust her decisions
when the opposite one is screaming?
Is it any wonder
avoiding it all
is most appealing?
Don’t you wish sometimes
that you could switch it off…
that ticking brain.
And that beating heart
that beats in vain,
Sometimes so loud
that you wonder
if it just wants to get out,
wants to get away from you,
away from the stress.
Away from the whole bloody mess.
I don’t like being at crossroads,
but should confess
I wonder if I seek them out.
Because the direction I’m going
And there are some days like today,
when crossroads allow.
that comforting loop.
Brought back to my routes,
I know where cracks are,
and can skip blindly again.
Avoid tripping up,
avoid feeling pain.
But what if it isn’t just sometimes?
What if sometimes becomes more times,
and more times becomes all times?
Sometimes I wonder
if I wonder just sometimes.
Goodness me! Following on from my last post, I am very pleased to say that things are certainly looking up on the writing front… I was fretting about the slow pace of contributions to my magazine – A-MUSE Mag – but it was all in vain because all of a sudden I am being overwhelmed with new and returning contributors, so I’m definitely feeling the buzz and creativity again, and the mag is beginning to look very healthy – phew 🙂
More good news… two of my suite101 articles – How to Choose a Writer’s Workspace, and How to Keep a Writer’s Notebook – have been chosen as Features for the Fiction Writing Section of the website, and one of them has even been nominated for an Editor’s Choice Award, for original content apparently… woohoo, very exciting! So I have decided that perhaps I have found my blogging niche – articles on the craft of writing – it makes sense.
I am running a new poetry competition in the magazine too which is a lot of fun – I love reading new entries. The new theme is Autumn is… and I am having visions of lots of leafy pics for the anthology. The first Anthology, I have to say was very beautiful. Its theme was inspirational poetry, and I titled it – Life’s too short. Look for silver linings – and I published all of the winning poems alongside uplifting pictures of clouds with silver linings. I must say I am a little nervous that I won’t have enough entries to choose from though. The competition is only running for three weeks – I may have to extend it. If you fancy entering a poem or too, feel free…
Aside from all of that, I don’t have much else in the way of writing news. Except that Na NoWriMo is drawing near and I still having begun to think about what I’ll be writing… despite writing a post on Plot Outlining for the mag. I’m beginning to feel the pressure…